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I really want to know you,

Is it merely pride that keeps you at bay?

What is really wrong here,

I wish that you would say.

I can not stand the silence…

why do you treat me this way?

Don’t you know how much I care?

Can’t you see all that’s out there?

So much that is to be delighted in and instead you just whine…

You are so ungrateful, not even asking why.

As if I have failed to do enough for you…

I gave my very life for you…and you still just laugh me off.

I keep coming softly closer,

but you keep telling me off.

I know you think that I am just a fable,

a product of some man.

Inside I know you know the truth, but it’s hard for you to understand.

See I made you with a hunger,

and a never-ending thirst.

I said that you will find me,

If you will simply look.

Don’t look with the eyes of man,

that have taught you to be afraid.

Instead you must search blindly, that’s how you develop faith.

Don’t worry you wont be “blind” for long I just want you to trust me.

My vast character,

my grand plan…

to paint the sky with another sunrise or sunset,

to give you another heart beat and yes another breath.

I can not let you go yet…

no, not just yet…

not until you know the reason…

I died to pay your debt.

It’s because I love you with a never-ending love

far beyond what you’ve ever known.

I want to give you the chance to grow in that love and learn to love me back.

We could have something great, something that will truly last,

because I will never leave you and you will never want to look back at what life used to be like without me.

You see I have been waiting for you all of your entire life.

Waiting for you to notice me and give me a chance.

I will prove myself to you…I don’t get scared of a fight,

you can argue with me and test me, I won’t run and hide.

I won’t trow a fit because you’ve made me wait…instead I will just quietly say…


Follow me.

Let me be your guide,

I know all the best routes, and while you have been carrying that heavy burden all your life,

come and trade it for mine…

for my yolk is easy, my burden is light.

This is not a trick,

I am not a salesman, I won’t cost you more than you can pay.

Plus I’ll provide for you, all that you need to make it through each day.

I will never let you down.

You can really trust me, and while you are growing in your relationship with me

I will help you to become more than you ever dreamed plus a man of integrity or a women of purity.

In me you will find such joy, and peace past your understanding,

I really just want to set you free of all things that make you look sadly.

Things you are not so proud of…things you’ed rather not share

Things you don’t dare…to even say.

I already know them…and I am ready to take them away.

Salvation is yours, it’s my gift to you.

Freedom, and love…honesty and integrity, joy, peace, hope and me…all of me, for you see I am Immanuel; God with you.

If you just read this and something inside you said “yes” and now for the first time you want to give your life to God, let’s pray together.

Lord Jesus, I know how scary it is to try new things, and I know that this person may be feeling unsure and afraid. I ask that you would give them peace right now and help them to understand what it is you have done for them I pray that they will give their hearts to you and live the rest of their lives joyfully in your service.  Please help them to find the courage now to ask you to forgive them of their sins, and to truly believe that you are God, that you died on the cross for them and three days later raised from the dead. I pray that they will ask you to be lord of their life and to kindle your light inside them as you make your home with them, and give them the gift of the holy spirit. Help them to take the next step and find a good church to grow in and people who genuinely love You who can then love them. In Jesus Name we pray, Amen.


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Warning: The following entry may upset you, it may offend as well…but you know I am not perfect and I can’t please everyone.  I am tired of always bowing to everyone else s opinions just because I am the “nice Christian” does not mean I have to agree, or sit quietly and say nothing. I am to be a cultivator of peace but most of the anti-God people I know out there do not have peace on their tongues or in their hearts when they are wielding them at me. I can’t sit by and say nothing, I have to be ready with a response for why I believe what I believe. I am passionate about Christ, I know the power of this transformed life and I don’t want anyone else to miss it. I have written the following not because I want to hurt or offend but because I feel like many people need to hear what I believe is becoming a growing epidemic of hard hearts and shut ears. People are so biased against God that when the subject is broached they have already written me off! As if the very God of creation did anything to offend them? He meticulously wove them in their mothers wombs, and died on the cross just so He could know them in a more intimate way. The desire is not one sided either, so many people talk about feeling empty, they try and fill their hearts, minds, and souls but nothing seems to satisfy. I know I have the answer…Jesus. He will perfectly fit that whole..you want to know why? Because it was a God shaped void…I am not saying that if you accept the gift of salvation and start developing a relationship with God that everything will be better…but at least you wont be alone…and eventually it will get better. God loves you too much to leave you in the mess, and He created you and purposed you for so much more…. that’s why you have so many gifts and talents. I pray that you will read this and rather than be offended your heart will be pricked and you will decide to get to know the God of your salvation…Immanuel: God with us, that’s Jesus.

You ask for proof!

Your own demise is written in your eyes,

void, as they are of truth.

Why can’t you see that if you would just look

with eyes that wanted to see

then proof…

well you would find it.

Instead you demand proof

but refuse to see

because you have already decided.

You have a disposition that is set against,

a bias if you will,

like a child,

who seeing but not knowing,

refuses to even try it!

Your staggering intellect has made you dumb.

For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing,

but to us who are being saved

it is the very power of God.

You want proof then here is some.

Diggers dig

and find in the ground

ancient kingdoms

whose histories are found within the scripture.

If historians

and scientists

recognize the Bible as a reliable source of history

don’t you think that makes it a little bit more trustworthy?

A standard test

to determine the authenticity and trustworthiness of books

found from earlier periods of time

is to test them against other copies of the same text,

and also to see how many copies of the same text are available.

For example:

If I had a copy of Homers Iliad

I could compare it to only a few of its other copies to prove that it was indeed a copy of that famous writing.

In comparison

we have found over five thousand early copies of the New Testament.

When compared to each other

they are amazingly accurate.

This is important to understand,

the Bible as being trustworthy.

These manuscripts of the New Testament date back to

before the close of the first century

this means that there were still lots of people around who had witnessed what was written in the text.

Had there been any inaccuracy to the accounts there would have been plenty of people around to contest the writing.

Plainly put, the authors of those books knew that if what they wrote was found to be inaccurate

there would have been plenty of people to point it out.

(If you are at all interested in learning more about this please follow the link http://carm.org/manuscript-evidence )

This all said… I realize that some people just wont open their eyes…

there hearts have grown dull

and they can not be convinced that maybe God exists

and He is who He says He is.

For you,

my staunchest critic

and being thus, always having an argument against everything I  write or say…

what can you say to the transformed life?

I was a drunk,

literally beer for breakfast kind of girl.

I needed alcohol to function!

When I gave my heart to God he delivered me from alcoholism.

It happened almost overnight.

I did not suffer withdrawal.

I was steeped in witchcraft,

having been caught up in what can sometimes be

very beautiful aspects of the craft,

I wanted to die…

and whenever I cast

it always seemed to go badly.

When I gave my life to God my eyes were opened.

I saw that while “white witches” think they are “good

the spirits they commune with are the epitome of evil.

They work with Satan

and he can appear as something so beautiful,

his native language,


and so that is why he and his can so easily convince a person that what they are doing is right….

he is out to kill, steal, and destroy

by any means necessary.

It’s war!

When I gave my life to God,

he dispelled the spells

and set this captive free!

The depression lifted

and for the first time in a long time I felt I was loved

and had a purpose!

Can’t you see yet?

I could have no more saved myself from alcoholism, and witchcraft, then a baby newly born could get up and run.


I could not have,

by my own power

forgiven the man who abused me horribly when I was just a child

and tried to kill my mother.

But the power of Christ in me, filled my heart with love for the man who was to be my father

I honor him to this day as such.

My mother, having come through addictions

heroin, meth, marijuana, prescription pills, and abusive men

has lost all her teeth,

but found the King!

Though separated from my “Dad”

she prays daily for restoration…

foolishness indeed to those who do not know the power of

 “God the great Physician”

He longs to heal and restore those who are broken or lost.

I speak of incredible things,

things you cannot fathom because you are so consumed with the meager lies you have been fed.

I have known so many like you.

To smart for your own good.

Even now you are preparing your rebuttal,

you open your mouth…

your sound bytes echo,

your pride swells stroking the inner man.

Convinced as you are that there is no grand maker,

no master plan.

My heart weeps for you

You wont give God anywhere to come in

but without Him you are dangerously empty,

Full of the other things you have pushed in

trying to fill the God shaped void

Never the less I try to make you stop, look and listen!

Creation renders man without excuse

and for lovers of truth, Amen!

I will never give up on you!

Clearly God has put you in my life for a reason.

You have such a hunger for truth.

Maybe in time God will reveal Himself to you

and you will use that amazing mind of yours to reach the lost for God.

That would be so AWESOME!!!

The very idea of you saved,

fills me with such joy

and I need some joy after this conversation.

I can have hope that one day you will see.

I must be faithful to never quite trying…

not to convert you,

I don’t want to push,

but to gently speak truth to you.

To show you with my faithful love and friendship that I am different than your other friends.

Because of Christ in me,

I can radiate a peace.

Because of Christ in me

I have joy.

Because of Christ in me

I want to live,

and if nothing else can convince you…this one truth should make a difference.

God has given me life!

Goodbye my dear friend for now,

yes I will see you soon.

Thanks for always putting up with me…

I know I can be trying sometimes

but you must know how genuinely I care.


next time we meet lets just play chess,

I won’t bring Him up if you don’t!


I love you. 

(Preach the gospel always, if necessary use words.)

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It does not make sense that in a room so full I could ever feel so alone.
Outside the room are more people still yet I have far from left a mark…
Not even a spark.
Nope no flickering flame here…
Know one can see me.
Nothing I do matters as I have no lasting effect..
No words of substance,
Nothing that makes a dent.
I am lost in my own bitter world and the armor I wear is soooo thick.
The pin prick of the fake hello you utter bounces off with such a loud revereb it makes me want to shutter.
I do kind of feel sick.
Why even acknowledge me?
You don’t really care!
I bet you would not even notice if I slipped right past..
I know you would not miss me if I just failed to ever come back…
Other people have…
Failed to come back I mean.
I don’t see anyone chasing them down
Accept maybe me.
I am hoping to share that I really care that I might understand what they are feeling…
That I too have a date with my switch blade…
At least I know it will show.
Seriously though, you make me so mad!!
What the hell is this feeling?
I can’t quite get a grab of the way it is pounding and drowning out my soul
It’s wrapped it’s claws around my skull and it’s never letting go.
The pastor says we war not against flesh and blood but against powers and principalities…
But all I know is that in the darkness everyone looks the same
 Friend or foe I just don’t know, what  can rid me of the pain…
The pain of my depression.
Then in the night when I think all is lost in the deepest and darkest despair,
A twisted breath
A shutter as death makes it’s pass over…
I breath a sigh as You pass by and block the fatal blow
I see a light
That pierces the night
It gives me sight
A glimpse if you will
Of what I might be
Because a man named Jesus died for me…
Except He’s more than a man
He’s God’s ultimate plan!
And He came to set the captives free!
Don’t you see, it’s in Him I find my face
He knows my true insides and does not turn away.
To Him I am beautiful
He has made me clean!
Even now the depression is just a fleeting thing…
A  whisp of a memory.


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Lyric 1: When you feel alone and lonely, when you are feeling down, I know the person you can go to, He will turn your frown upside down.

Lyric 2: When the worlds closing in and all around seems dark, I know the one who will show you how to kindle an unquenchable spark.

Lyric 3: When you think that nothing matters and you’ve lost your greatest friend, come along and He will show you a joy that never ends.

Lyric 4: When you are so tired and you feel like giving up, just relax and let God hold you, don’t ever pick the burden back up!

Chorus: God’s yolk is easy. His burden is light. Let Him fill you with the brightest of lights. Don’t be afraid now, no don’t run away, just stop and pray now, He will show you the way! Oh!! Just stop and pray now, He will show you the way!


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How are you dear friend?

It has been too long.

Now the time has come to reacquaint ourselves with each-other and our own unique expressions.

I know it’s a chore.

Yes, I know it’s a task that requires some tenderness and yet a firm grasp, lest you slip away.

Refusing to share, refusing to play.

It’s not safe you say?

Why whatever do you mean? I simply wish you to converse with me!

Ah, well I see, that’s not exactly true, I really want you to bare your soul and let me tear into you.

Oh, dear me, what did you say…no of course not darling I would never.

You simply heard wrong please, you must clean those ears, I would never say tear I said peer of course peer!

I can see now why you hesitate.

Why that’s simply absurd, I am merely a place, a space if you will, for you to come and have your fill of writing and reading and dreaming and being…and who cares if all the world see’s?

Don’t you dream?


Well then, please presently write it here!

Now good day my dear!

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Fill the void

What happens when you dream?

A waking thought.

A laugh that’s caught, just before the beam.

The sunlight filters through the curtains, you stir and begin to wake,

grasping the tendrils, it unravels…I can’t remember a thing.

What is a wish if not a prayer, a hope or longing in your heart, a hole that must be filled.

What matters most is what you use to fill that place within your being, a hope, a dream, and then a prayer, as gentle light is kindled there.

Our lives laid bare and we begin to see our very real need for a savior.

When seeking the dream, the one that “feels real”, I suggest you go with the best!

The one that actually IS!

Seek and ye shall find!

The truth is waiting with the thought.

The Testament of the ultimate plot.

A love story that reaches across all time and tells of our formation.

The great I AM, and how He longs, to once again, be welcomed by His creation!

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The woe’s of flight

Somehow those guys can throw their frisbee’s so much farther than I can. It is really amazing to watch as they wind up and throw, the disc just seems to go and go always landing somewhere near the disc golf hole. My discs on the other hand get flung with all my might and almost always go off to the right, or hit a tree, or even just ker-plop. 

How do they do it? I see the way they grip their discs and here comes the dance of the short rush and arm zip…then the disc seems to hang in the air, it floats and floats without a care. It reaches it’s crescendo and gently begins it’s downward descent landing in good proximity to the ultimate event, and these guys are making under par every time… that’s a crime! What about mine? It sores and it flies but when it reaches crescendo it simply just dies, hurtling toward the ground at a steep incline, I find that if I could make par that would be simply divine.


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