Posts Tagged ‘truth’

Lord, guide me as I write tonight. 

I have to serve You out of the overflow, out of the well if you will. I need to be full first though and so I read Your word…I search to know You deeply, I look to seek Your face. I think of all who have come before me, patriarchs of amazing faith. I can learn so much about You by studying their faith, all the ways that You supplied for them, guided them, and gave them a better place. I know this is Your heart for us, Your children, You want to give us good. I thank You for Your love for me and the way You show me daily that You have a plan for me. One that is for my good and not to bring me ruin, I trust You know whats best even when the road ahead is hard because I know You are just building my character, You are making me strong. I will persevere, I will finish the race and it will all be for You Lord and because of Your amazing grace. See, You are the one that empowers me, You guide me and give me peace, You are the glue that binds me and holds me to my place. You never will forsake me and You came to take my place, on that tree You hung there, when it should have been me. I can’t say thank you enough…I can’t say…Just know that I love You and I will spend the rest of my days glorifying You and singing Your praise. 

Lord, forgive me. Their are so many people who are lost. They don’t know You…or they don’t want to and I can’t change their hearts…I know that only You can do that…but I still try. I feel like I keep slamming myself against this stone wall willing it to break and instead the people leer at me, you know the expression on their face. They think that I am a lunatic, though all I seek to do is love, I am gentle in my approach…I don’t Bible thump. I recognize that You are a gentleman You want to be invited in…and yet the world makes You stay outside…they have not been trained to do what is right. In this world where wrong is right and night is day…everyone tries to hide away and all seem hurt and lost, You shine your light, it’s ever so bright and I just want to soak it in so that ones again I can meet the rock with my limbs and maybe it will budge. You said faith can move a mountain…well help me break this rock! 


In Jesus Name, Amen. 


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Warning: The following entry may upset you, it may offend as well…but you know I am not perfect and I can’t please everyone.  I am tired of always bowing to everyone else s opinions just because I am the “nice Christian” does not mean I have to agree, or sit quietly and say nothing. I am to be a cultivator of peace but most of the anti-God people I know out there do not have peace on their tongues or in their hearts when they are wielding them at me. I can’t sit by and say nothing, I have to be ready with a response for why I believe what I believe. I am passionate about Christ, I know the power of this transformed life and I don’t want anyone else to miss it. I have written the following not because I want to hurt or offend but because I feel like many people need to hear what I believe is becoming a growing epidemic of hard hearts and shut ears. People are so biased against God that when the subject is broached they have already written me off! As if the very God of creation did anything to offend them? He meticulously wove them in their mothers wombs, and died on the cross just so He could know them in a more intimate way. The desire is not one sided either, so many people talk about feeling empty, they try and fill their hearts, minds, and souls but nothing seems to satisfy. I know I have the answer…Jesus. He will perfectly fit that whole..you want to know why? Because it was a God shaped void…I am not saying that if you accept the gift of salvation and start developing a relationship with God that everything will be better…but at least you wont be alone…and eventually it will get better. God loves you too much to leave you in the mess, and He created you and purposed you for so much more…. that’s why you have so many gifts and talents. I pray that you will read this and rather than be offended your heart will be pricked and you will decide to get to know the God of your salvation…Immanuel: God with us, that’s Jesus.

You ask for proof!

Your own demise is written in your eyes,

void, as they are of truth.

Why can’t you see that if you would just look

with eyes that wanted to see

then proof…

well you would find it.

Instead you demand proof

but refuse to see

because you have already decided.

You have a disposition that is set against,

a bias if you will,

like a child,

who seeing but not knowing,

refuses to even try it!

Your staggering intellect has made you dumb.

For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing,

but to us who are being saved

it is the very power of God.

You want proof then here is some.

Diggers dig

and find in the ground

ancient kingdoms

whose histories are found within the scripture.

If historians

and scientists

recognize the Bible as a reliable source of history

don’t you think that makes it a little bit more trustworthy?

A standard test

to determine the authenticity and trustworthiness of books

found from earlier periods of time

is to test them against other copies of the same text,

and also to see how many copies of the same text are available.

For example:

If I had a copy of Homers Iliad

I could compare it to only a few of its other copies to prove that it was indeed a copy of that famous writing.

In comparison

we have found over five thousand early copies of the New Testament.

When compared to each other

they are amazingly accurate.

This is important to understand,

the Bible as being trustworthy.

These manuscripts of the New Testament date back to

before the close of the first century

this means that there were still lots of people around who had witnessed what was written in the text.

Had there been any inaccuracy to the accounts there would have been plenty of people around to contest the writing.

Plainly put, the authors of those books knew that if what they wrote was found to be inaccurate

there would have been plenty of people to point it out.

(If you are at all interested in learning more about this please follow the link http://carm.org/manuscript-evidence )

This all said… I realize that some people just wont open their eyes…

there hearts have grown dull

and they can not be convinced that maybe God exists

and He is who He says He is.

For you,

my staunchest critic

and being thus, always having an argument against everything I  write or say…

what can you say to the transformed life?

I was a drunk,

literally beer for breakfast kind of girl.

I needed alcohol to function!

When I gave my heart to God he delivered me from alcoholism.

It happened almost overnight.

I did not suffer withdrawal.

I was steeped in witchcraft,

having been caught up in what can sometimes be

very beautiful aspects of the craft,

I wanted to die…

and whenever I cast

it always seemed to go badly.

When I gave my life to God my eyes were opened.

I saw that while “white witches” think they are “good

the spirits they commune with are the epitome of evil.

They work with Satan

and he can appear as something so beautiful,

his native language,


and so that is why he and his can so easily convince a person that what they are doing is right….

he is out to kill, steal, and destroy

by any means necessary.

It’s war!

When I gave my life to God,

he dispelled the spells

and set this captive free!

The depression lifted

and for the first time in a long time I felt I was loved

and had a purpose!

Can’t you see yet?

I could have no more saved myself from alcoholism, and witchcraft, then a baby newly born could get up and run.


I could not have,

by my own power

forgiven the man who abused me horribly when I was just a child

and tried to kill my mother.

But the power of Christ in me, filled my heart with love for the man who was to be my father

I honor him to this day as such.

My mother, having come through addictions

heroin, meth, marijuana, prescription pills, and abusive men

has lost all her teeth,

but found the King!

Though separated from my “Dad”

she prays daily for restoration…

foolishness indeed to those who do not know the power of

 “God the great Physician”

He longs to heal and restore those who are broken or lost.

I speak of incredible things,

things you cannot fathom because you are so consumed with the meager lies you have been fed.

I have known so many like you.

To smart for your own good.

Even now you are preparing your rebuttal,

you open your mouth…

your sound bytes echo,

your pride swells stroking the inner man.

Convinced as you are that there is no grand maker,

no master plan.

My heart weeps for you

You wont give God anywhere to come in

but without Him you are dangerously empty,

Full of the other things you have pushed in

trying to fill the God shaped void

Never the less I try to make you stop, look and listen!

Creation renders man without excuse

and for lovers of truth, Amen!

I will never give up on you!

Clearly God has put you in my life for a reason.

You have such a hunger for truth.

Maybe in time God will reveal Himself to you

and you will use that amazing mind of yours to reach the lost for God.

That would be so AWESOME!!!

The very idea of you saved,

fills me with such joy

and I need some joy after this conversation.

I can have hope that one day you will see.

I must be faithful to never quite trying…

not to convert you,

I don’t want to push,

but to gently speak truth to you.

To show you with my faithful love and friendship that I am different than your other friends.

Because of Christ in me,

I can radiate a peace.

Because of Christ in me

I have joy.

Because of Christ in me

I want to live,

and if nothing else can convince you…this one truth should make a difference.

God has given me life!

Goodbye my dear friend for now,

yes I will see you soon.

Thanks for always putting up with me…

I know I can be trying sometimes

but you must know how genuinely I care.


next time we meet lets just play chess,

I won’t bring Him up if you don’t!


I love you. 

(Preach the gospel always, if necessary use words.)

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Let’s talk about something hard. Something that often gets twisted up. Something that causes such anger and sadness along with confusion, that many of you may never want to visit my page again. Do you wonder what the topic is yet? 

Discipline/ Child Training

Do I have your attention? Are you going to continue reading or are you already angry? I have some things I would like to say on this topic and so I will bravely march on. 

We live in a dark and broken world. It is a place where people often twist even the best things up until they are no longer recognizable and no longer resemble even a former shadow of the good things they were. I think the same has been done with the training and disciplining of our children.  

The Bible says that God disciplines those he loves. Now as a Christian I understand that it is because my heavenly father loves me that he would ever even bother to care enough about me to try and correct my bad behavior. I know that it is out of God’s great love and mercy for me that he painstakingly, patiently, and lovingly corrects me so that I can develop a moral character that will shine before men and set me apart as having something desirable. As a Christian I realize that God is shaping and molding me to have a heart like his, to love like he loves and to serve how he serves, he is training me to be a good example of who he is and teaching me to be kind and generous, to be selfless, and humble, to have self control and patients, to forgive and to try and just do what is right in general. If God did not love me he would not bother to teach me these things, he would not bother to train me…the same can be said in regards to parents and their earthly children. So many parents fail to consistently, patiently, lovingly, painstakingly,   faithfully, and carefully train their children.

What kind of parent are you? 

Are you the screamer? Yelling at your children to try and get them to respond in a way that you think they should? 

Are you the negotiator? Using treats, or rewards to try and get your kids to obey in the way you think? 

Are you the bully? Using force to make your child succumb to your demands. “I said sit down” (you physically push your child down). 

Are you the “Time-out” parent? Using time-out’s as a way to try and make your kid behave? 

Are you the beater or abuser? You make your kids do what you say because if they don’t they are going to pay it. 

My questions to you is do any of these really work? I don’t think that they do. But I realize that many parents feel stuck between a rock and hard place not knowing what to do. What I suggest is nothing new, it’s been around for ages, but the world has recently turned against it to such a degree that many parents are afraid to do it. Have you guessed? Yes, I suggest spanking. Now wait! Don’t freak out. I don’t mean beat your kids, I don’t mean go to the extreme and become some crazy child beating lunatic. I simply mean this, and I will give some examples now: 

A four to six month old who is learning the army crawl and maybe to actually crawl may often crawl towards the fire place. Now in my home I have a bit of stone that comes out and clearly makes a threshold for the fireplace. I trained my daughter at this tender age not to cross the threshold simply by standing by and waiting for her hand to fly out and touch it. I would then give her little hand a little flick and explain in a calm yet firm voice that the fire place was a “no”. I found that after the third or fourth time she simply ceased trying as she learned that to cross the line would lead to a very little bit of pain and a sad look from her mam-ma. Let me tell you that had I not rained her in such a manner the pain she may have suffered the first time we lit a fire would have been far worse, and I realize that many would say well why not just never light a fire. The problem is not with the fire place itself. you see what is really being trained is for my daughter to obey when I say something is a “no”. If I can consistently train her not to touch the things that may cause pain or may be broken if she is to forceful then in essence I am really training her that when I say no, she will heed my word. 

Here is another example: If I train my child to come the first time I call her then when I am out in public and she is running through a park…I can say “stop, come back here” and she will stop in her step, turn and come back to my side. Now, I am not suggesting that she is perfect, I am just suggesting that as I “tie sweet bonds of fellowship with her” and consistently train her, she will long to obey me and strive to not disappoint.

Okay, so let me re-assure some of you, if in fact anyone is still reading. A parent should never discipline or train when angry. Never spank out of anger or hard enough to do more than sting just a little bit…it does not even have to be hard enough to make a child cry as long as you are consistent to give the same consequence for each action your child will soon learn that you mean business and the you are going to win.  There are real consequences for actions in the real world so why not at home too? 

I put to you that regardless of what you may or may not be doing you are training your children in one way or another. You just either train them to be obedient, content, joyful, and helpful children or you train them to be selfish, self serving, mean, angry, dishonest, and discontent children.

Please think about what you are teaching, or not teaching to your kids. Whatever you do, follow your conscience, I know that as long as you do your best you will be doing better than many others!

If you are interested in learning more about child training and Godly parenting principles I suggest you check out http://www.nogreaterjoy.org  Just take everything they say with a grain of salt…you don’t have to do it all but recognize that they have a heart for kids and for equipping their parents to be able to properly raise them. Also please realize that as Christians we ultimately want to teach our children to lovingly obey so that they will be able to recognize the need to lovingly obey God…we see it as a way to woo them. It is always done with great care, diligence, love, and tenderness. Never, never, NEVER out of anger! 




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The light is so subtle as it creeps steadily through my curtains like a military force slowly advancing on it’s target. As the light comes, it dispels the darkness and I am left feeling clean and alive once more. There was a part of me that truly loved the night a long time ago…I used to prefer to live in it and instead sleep in the day, but that was before I met Him.

Before I met Him so many things were different about me. I thought that night was better than day…more mysterious, more opportunity to do things that must be hidden. It was all dark and sinister…and I loved it. I used to think that if vampires were real I could find them only in the night and with the love of blood and sex everything would be alright…I could live forever! Yes this was before the twilight craze…before vampires lived in the day. In that time I practiced witchcraft too…longing to bring true love my way…tired I guess, even then, of all the subtle games that I played trying to get what I thought I wanted. Desperately seeking for someone to find me, love me, lead me, and see me…but how could they? It was to dark to see me, I was to ugly to love, all twisted up and brokenly confused…until You.

It was night when I met You too…I ponder this now thinking You must have known that You would have to woo me back out of the night and into the light. You met me on my turf. You sought me out, and when I laid bare all that I was in those terrifyingly quite moments you took me in your arms and washed me clean. To You I was not ugly, to You I was not used, to You I was a treasure and You showed me all that I had been loosing by believing the lie that living in the night was all that I deserved. You showed me that light is stronger than darkness, and that a price had been laid on my head, like a bounty hunter You found me and said that You had already paid the lynch man off, You had surrendered the cost and if I would only accept this truth, this selfless gift then I could know what true love meant. Then, with a mind that was screaming and a heart that was beating so violently I thought it might rip free from it’s rib cage enclosure, carefully creeping on trembling toe’s painstakingly slow…you led me from darkness into glorious day, and I will never be the same!

Now my love affair is with the day, and I ache and long for the light, for the truth to shine and the lies and things that are hidden to be exposed and dispelled. Light conquers darkness, and You reign in my heart, you set me apart, you call me your own and now I am home…home in the light. I say goodbye to the night.

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